Resignation

I give up.

I don't think we will make it to China this year. Why does it seem like EVERYBODY and their mother got their child or is on the plane THIS VERY MOMENT on their way to China to get their child?

But not us.

People who had the same basic time frame?

Yup. Back already.

Us??

HA!

We are still staring at the cellphone.

Have I mentioned that I, who would lose my phone constantly to my husband's frustration; carry it in my purse dead; leave it in the car and forget where I put it; put it in my winter coat pocket, forget it was there, it would die, and I'd be bummed until a week later I wore the same coat an found it again,dead; and once I ran over it with my truck and didn't have one for a week, and I was totally okay with that.

I, now carry it in my POCKET?????? Fully charged??? stare at it??? Hope and pray over it????

Yeah!!

HA!

I am ready to pitch it in that nice lake we have in the neighboring town.

Yup. Maybe on the way to church on Sunday, it will fly out the window.

YEAH!

And HEY, Kate can call my house phone.

And leave a message.

And I'll get it whenever I happen to be home, and remember to check my answering machine.

Yeah.

That sounds like a GREAT idea.




I know. I am bitter.

And I need to stop.




So excuse me while I go put my cell on the charger.

Because I don't know how not to...

...sit and wait.

And hope.

And pray.

And I guess it will be okay if we don't go this year.

I guess.