Do I trust?

I got my car back!!!!!!!!



After almost 8 weeks of driving around Chloe's little SUV, I finally got my car back. It took a little bit to get used to the size & weight again. It sure is a monster. But its my monster again,and I love it. :)

So, all this has a point. See, now that I have my car back, I have all my cds again! If I had a brain, I would just have taken all my cds from my car and transfered them with me. But I don't, so the world is safe.

SO, back to the point. Again. I really enjoy country music. I am a big Brad Paisley fan. So yesterday I was playing his stuff, then all of a sudden, randomly, I put on a Kenny Rodgers cd. I KNOW!! Really....anyway, this song, " She Believes in Me" which I am sure everyone has heard before, came on. It got me thinking about how I want to be that woman.

For the first time ever, having heard this song for years and years, I realized, I REALLY want to be like that. I think scripture encourages us women to cherish, love and trust our husbands. The trust part is hard for me, even after almost 23 years of marrige. But when this song was playing, I thought about how time & time again, in God's word it talks about our roles as wives. And the whole trust the headship thing that comes with it.

Coming from a hispanic matriarchal society, walking out this part of my faith is the thorn in my flesh. I think it is a women thing to begin with, but when being the head is what you have been raised with, and taking up your mantel is expected, but then having to surrender it. ...

My poor husband. He is ever so patient and loving.

And he needs to have a wife who believes in him. Trust that he is doing the right things before God for this family. Trust him, even though he will make mistakes. Trusts he can do a good job spiritually & emotionally, even when I don't understand it.

We just purchased The Austronaut Farmer. What a good movie. Once again dealing with this issue. I want to be her when I grow up.

Now if only I could grow up.