I have been in a Holy Struggle the last few weeks.
I went to sleep last night at about 1:30am, and woke up about 6 times during the night. This morning, I beg my Lord to give me instruction from HIS Word, once again. To put this heart of mine at peace.
He is so wonderful, this God of mine. I was reading Ephesians 4 today, and it hit me. I have not been a "prisoner for the Lord." As I read the chapter, I wept with joy. I felt my heart begin to become less burdened with every word. HE is in control. I worry entirely too much, as though I could do anything about anything!!
Okay okay, confession time. I ALWAYS want to be in control of how things happen. As though I have a right, or at least have done a decent job in the past. Neither of which are true.
I keep telling my kids , when they say life is not fair or when they think they have rights, " As a child of God, you have the right to serve others , and thats it." I guess its about time I take my own advice, and be set free.